Heyya how's it going?

I know, I know.

I haven't been on in a looong time.
It's probably a god blessing for some.
Let me just say, I'm less worried about being on here more then ever, for now.
Like cause it's associated with stress, it's like I'm ignoring the stress, hence the stress creator.
In fact, the truth is, I've had a computer for over a month now, and the internet.
I've just never had the time to come on, or wasn't in the mood to make my 'come back' journal. I'm not as involved on dA as I used to be, or as much as I'd like to be.
I've missed it terribly, but at the same time I've just never felt like going on.
I miss you all incredibly and I fear I've drifted with some good friends of mine, that I only see online, which has gotten me down some, also because I'm 'out of the loop' of the internet world.
I've missed so much, and there are so many things to catch up on, I just want to forget about them all and move on with my life. Infact, I kinda want to just give up on my big sites that I'm involved in and just live on my social life and problems NOT on the internet.
Kinda like getting over it completely and just forgetting everything. I've had a taste of life without the internet and computer and i actually don't mind it. I go crazy when I know it's near me, cause I'm so addicted I NEED to go on...But I think I've evolved [mentally LOL] to a state where I can get over the addiction of the internet.
Shit...
I've got five minutes left...
Anyway
But I CAN'T GIVE IT UP!!
I don't even want to, it's like a half and half want.
Half kinda want's to move on and the other half is screaming at me for being a douche.
I think it's because I have missed out on so much and not COMPLETED [wink, wink] so many things, I just don't want to and I certainly don't want NEW things added to it all.
But I think if I work on it all, I'll get over my weird desires to give it all up and come back with a boom lol.
I have nothing better to do but play PS2 and better myself in every way, though my social life is increasing SO much in the city.
And that's also why I miss my net friends. You guys do mean something to me.
And if I ever visit an area where one of you are, I'd so love to meet you randomly LOL but if I lose my friendships and connections, that wont happen.
Anyway, here's the deal;

But now what sucks is, I've jinxed myself.
I now have MORE computer troubles.
I THINK the screen has something wrong with it.
You see, I was online with Eb, , on msn and I went for a shower. I had my music on so I had something in the background because I was home alone...and I heard it playing when I got out, but when I blow dried my hair I couldn't hear it anymore and YES it was loud enough to hear over some ROARING hair dryer...
So I was like; "WTF? OH...Maybe it just went into sleep mode or some shit."
When I went back to my room, it said it was on sleep mode, but when I pressed it to come back on nothing happened for 10 minutes so I turned it off and back on again.
It turns on but the screen stays black.
Doesn't even go to the windows loading screen OR the brand of the laptop, like it says :ACER something or other.
This lappy is the lappy FROM HELL.
So I'm once again computer-less, and I wasted the time I had to be back on dA :/
So I kinda feel like a retard.
A big sped...

But I have to go now, so just remember I miss my friends on here and on other sites, and if I sort myself out [more likely then not] I'll be back hopefully soon as I'll probably get a NEW lappy before the year is out.
If not, then i guess I'll just slowly fade away from this site or the net in general.
But we all know I'm too much of a sped and addicted freak to leave the net or computers. I can't live without them except when I am going out with friends or doing something.

Anyways I HOPE I'll see you all soon, love xx.



SHIT LOL
I forgot to say, when my computer crashed I lost so MAJOR art D<<<<
i did the best piece I think I've EVER done, a few of them actually and I'VE FUCKING LOST THEM!! One took me something like 11 or 12 hours.
Can you believe that?!
Anyway, I wasn't smart enough to store them on a USB because I didn't think I'd need to D<<
I didn't know my comp was gunna crash.
Too bad i guess, though I know I'll NEVER be able to do anything as good as them again :/

SO yeah lol :/
Meh.

Bye for now xx.

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